I may have found my motivation, or at least I think I’m looking in the right direction…
I am very intrinsically motivated (or self-motivated). I believe in will power - “you can do anything you put your mind to” type of thing. This can be amazing. Really, it can be such a wonderful tool. You do what you want. You decide you want to run a half marathon? Do it! That’s my philosophy. However; I’ve come to realize, it can also be awful! If you are self motivated, and you lose that motivation, you’re outta luck until you find it again. Sure, encouraging words from others are always nice, but they definitely help some more than others. Don’t get me wrong, I like your encouragement, but sometimes I need that extra *umph!*
I posted a new thread on the CoolRunnig forum asking for motivation from others who may have been in my situation. One of the responses in one word was “jewelry”. She went on to explain that she injured herself while training for a half marathon, was getting discouraged, so she bought herself a 13.1 bracelet and a motivational bracelet. Yes – I realize that this isn’t exactly intrinsic motivation, but sometimes you need something to help keep you motivated…
To some of you, this may seem silly. But it’s actually one of the things I did while training for my first half marathon. I was getting discouraged about my speed (still slow, but I don’t care) so I bought myself a necklace with 2 charms; 1 runner girl, and 1 that said “13.1 strong”. I told myself I couldn’t wear it until after the race, but have worn it almost every day since!
With that said, I think I’m going to buy another charm to go along with it. I’m not sure what yet, but it’s going to be awesome. Maybe believe or something along those lines. Another thing I’ve 95% decided, is that I’m going to get another tattoo. Since I want to get it on my foot, and I remember the amount of time it took to heal, I’m going to wait until after my last planned race in February, but I’m pretty sure I will get it. Not sure exactly what it will say or what it will look like. I know I want to design it, and that I want either: strength, strong, will power, or believe in it.
My life has taken a complete 180 degree turn in the past 2 years or so. Rather, I should say, I’ve taken my life and made a complete 180 degree turn. I’ve accomplished so much that I always thought impossible. I contribute that to my inner strength. The tattoo, I realize many people will think is silly, but it would be a reminder to me of what I’ve accomplished, and what I am capable of. It will also serve as a reminder of what is yet to come.
So, there you have it. I’ve noticed my entries are a little scattered brained at times (much like my actual thoughts) so sorry about that!
Long story short, I may have found my motivation again, and I’m pretty happy about that!