Monday, July 30, 2012

Music Monday | Hey Ho

You're welcome. 

 And sorry if I sound like too much of a photography nerd, but I am in love with the composition and lighting of this video. Well done!


Hey Ho
By The Lumineers

I've never been so happy to see a girl leave
Take your filthy little hands off my dirty ripped jeans
You told me you hated my GNR shirt
Shoulda known then, this is never gonna work
But like what you like, don't matter to me
Just leave the jack and take your hennessy
Take your Kanye out of my player please
Led Zepplin 45 is stayin' with me

Hey ho
Ain't nothin' little 'bout rock n roll
Hey ho
Rap it up and hip-hop down the road
Hell no
Don't turn down my radio
If you're a dirty little rocker
Baby come on and let it show
And scream "Hey ho"

You never liked any damn song I wrote
You spent my money and you smoked my smoke
Pumpin' lame-ass beats in your foreign car
It ain't real music without guitar
I like Jimmy Hendrix, baby don't you know
I like gettin' high, not ridin' low


You can wait me in line, at the club, if you wanna
Shake your ass all night, but I'm gonna
Find a rocker chick that'll bang to Nirvana
Yo, ho! You gotta go!
You ain't nothin' but a...


Never been so happy to see a girl leave
Take your Little Wayne outta my player please
Shoulda never let you smoke my smoke
I like gettin' high, not ridin' low

If you're a dirty little rocker
Baby come on and let it show
And scream "Hey, ho!"

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Holy WOW!

Alternative post title: holy shit balls - but I thought that might be a little much this early in the're welcome.

So, a friend and I created a Facebook group for the Mama Laughlin followers as a forum to come for advice, encouragement, motivation, recipes, tips, etc for those wanting to lsoe weight and/or get/stay fit.  We launched it yesterday and as of this morning we have nearly 1800 fans.  WHOA. I had NO IDEA it would be this popular.

What this tells me, is that I'm not the only one losing weight.  I'm not the only one needing support.  

I'm a natural cheerleader, so I am SO STOKED and slightly overwhelmed to be able to stand along side these ladies as they fight to get fit.

Today was a weigh in.  I'm still dealing with the 2 pound cycle/platue.  I read up on it and apparently it's common when you've lost this much weight.  Still sticking with it.  I'm not giving up.  I will continue to work out and stay on plan.

I'm 168.8 today... .4lb loss, which I'm happy about.

Anyways - if you want to join the group, it's here:

Hell yeah bishes, that's a hip bone. BOOYA!

So - join me, I'll kick your ass into shape, encourage you very sweetly! 

peace & love

Friday, July 20, 2012

Austin Music Hall - Don't go!

Don't normally post rants on my blog, but it needs to be said.  Saw Tenacious D here last night, and I will never go back - ever.  Sadly, I didn't even get to see them play.

The worst concert venue I've ever been in.  They oversell their seating.  Then force everyone to stand on top of each other.  Staff doesn't communicate with each other.  We were directed (by staff) to stand on the top bleacher of the upstairs.  We left our spot on the floor to follow directions, then five minutes later a different staff member told us it was "against fire code" and that we had to move.  Of course we couldn't stand in the aisles (which everyone ended up doing after the show started), and couldn't stand in the mezzanine (which everyone ended up doing after the show started).  I stood for 2 hours and literally did not see a single thing on the stage, because there were 2 rows of people standing on the floor in front of me.

It is safe to say that I will never go to another event here, ever.  Worst concert experience I've ever had - and it wasn't the cheapest either.

Bottom line: they oversold the venue, didn't allow people to stand around, but didn't provide a place for them to go.  Why pay good money for a concert when there isn't even a guaranteed spot? If you're going to sell "standing room only" tickets, don't charge the same price as tickets with spots, and make sure your ticket holder is aware of that BEFORE they purchase a ticket MONTHS in advance.

Horrible experience.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Music Monday | Young Blood

And I'm totally obsessed with this song.

I love it.

Love it.

Love it.

Thank goodness for digital age and google.

Although google didn't recognize "eh yayayaya lyrics".  So it kinda sucks for not being able to read my mind. Soon enough I bet. Creepy.

Anyways, the song. Download it on iTunes RIGHT NOW.  Don't f***ing argue with me

Download it.


Not sure why I'm so angry about you not wanting to download it.  Just do it already.

Young Blood
by Naked and Famous

We're only young and naive still
We require certain skills
The mood it changes like the wind
Hard to control when it begins

The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

Can't help myself but count the flaws
Claw my way out through these walls
One temporary escape
Feel it start to permeate

We lie beneath the stars at night
Our hands gripping each other tight
You keep my secrets hope to die
Promises, swear them to the sky

The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

As it withers
Brittle it shakes
Can you whisper
As it crumbles and breaks
As you shiver
Count up all your mistakes
Pair of forgivers
Let go before it's too late
Can you whisper
Can you whisper
Can you whisper
Can you whisper

The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
The bittersweet between my teeth
Trying to find the in-betweens
Fall back in love eventually
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

Thursday, July 12, 2012

I'm a loser, baby

Um, but please don't kill me.

Eh, eh? You like that?  Beck reference...

Some of you may be too old or lame to know not know that song.

Damn my generation had some good ass shit music.

After 4 weeks of losing a total of 2 pounds, where I actually gained somewhere in there, I saw a legit number today...

Lost 2.1 lbs this week.  I'm down to 168.2.

I've set some new goals for me...

Lose 5lbs each month until February 1.  Manageable, but I'm going to have to keep working hard.

I've adjusted my goal weight to 135lbs.  I'm not going to stress over than number.  Originally I picked 145 as my goal, but I want to see if I can get down to 135 and maintain.  If I can get there, why not?  Right?  Right!

After all, this is about being the best me I can be.  Average isn't good enough.

Ran across a quote the other day, not sure who said/wrote it:

If it's important to you, you'll find a way.  If it's not, you'll find an excuse.

BAM!  Love it.

So, are you going to find a way or find an excuse?  Your choice.

I'll leave you with this:
Yes, took this in the gym.  Don't judge me.  You'd check out my hot ass tushy too...

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Said no one. Ever.

I really regret that workout. 
- Said no one. Ever. 

I really wish I ate that brownie instead of that apple. I'd feel better about myself. 
- Said no one. Ever. 

I hate that my pants are fitting so loosely.
- Said no one. Ever. 

Double chins are so ef-ing sexy.
- Said no one. Ever. 

I don't feel like a total badass after waking up early for a nice workout.
- Said no one. Ever. 

YAY muffin top! 
- Said no one. Ever. 

Tight abs are hideous.
- Said no one. Ever.

Quitting feels so rewarding.
- Said no one. Ever.

Saddle bags are a major turn-on.
- Said no one. Ever.

Toned arms and legs are so gross.
- Said no one. Ever.

It sucks that I look awesome in this bikini that I've worked my ass off to get into.
- Said no one. Ever.

Get the picture?
Stop being lame.  Just do it already.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Music Monday | It's Time

If I had this album as a record, I'd be burning a hole in it right now.  I'm in love with this song.  I was introduced to this song a few weeks back and can't get it out of my head.  I have yet to hear it on the radio or Pandora...which is probably a good thing.  

Anyways, happy Monday.  

Enjoy this refreshing tune!

It's Time
by Imagine Dragons

So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent
And now it's time to build from the bottom of the pit
Right to the top
Don't hold back
Packing my bags and giving the academy a rain check

I don't ever want to let you down
I don't ever want to leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
I'm never changing who I am

So this is where you fell
And I am left to sell
The path to heaven runs through miles of clouded hell
Right to the top
Don't look back
Turning to rags and giving the commodities a rain check

I don't ever want to let you down
I don't ever want to leave this town
'Cause after all
This city never sleeps at night

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
I'm never changing who I am

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
I'm never changing who I am

This road never looked so lonely
This house doesn't burn down slowly
To ashes, to ashes

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
I'm never changing who I am

It's time to begin, isn't it?
I get a little bit bigger, but then I'll admit
I'm just the same as I was
Now don't you understand
I'm never changing who I am

Saturday, July 7, 2012


McClean Fahnestock created a video simultaneously showing the clip of all 135 space launches.

Including The Challenger...

Watch this.

You will be in awe.

Grand Finale 2010-11 from McLean Fahnestock on Vimeo.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Dealing with the g-word...

And no, it's not gansta.  I knew that's what you all were thinking.  Weirdos.  Why would I blog about that?  Other than the fact that I'm totally thug.  I grew up on the mean streets of Santa Barbara, fools.  Don't question me. 


Where did that come from?  I don't even know...


That lovely g-word...


How to deal with weight *gulp* gain.

I stepped on the scale this morning.  So shitty that my weigh in day is the day after National Beer & Brats Day, our Nation's birthday.  So, naturally, I drank like the lush I was before I started trying to lose weight more than I usual would, but actually didn't eat any more than normal, so that's good.

But, today, I stepped on the scale and gained 1.1 lbs since last Thursday morning.  Not only that, but the prior 4 weeks, I had only lost 2 lbs.  Which means, I'm slowing down, big time.  

I set little motivational reminders on my phone.  I put in my calendar every 5lb milestone and set a reminder to pop up on my phone.  Well, I was supposed to weigh 160 yesterday.  Mother f...  That stung.  Big time.  Especially after stepping on the scale to have it read 170.2. 


So, how do you get past it?  

You stop being a little bish, and just do.

You have to realize it was one week. 

It's over with.

You can't change what just happened.

You can only change it for next week.

I could sit there and say ef it.  I'm at my average weight for my height.  I feel good, I'll just stop here.

But guess what.  Average isn't good enough.

And I won't be happy until I hit my peak and I know that this is not my peak.

What am I going to do?

I'm going to re-visit my meals from when I was losing a pound a week, and get back to that.  

I'm going to continue to track my points.

I'm going to realize that even if I slow down, it does not mean I should stop trying.

I'm also going to try to cut my lunch & dinner in half and replace that half with a salad with healthy dressing.

Fun fact: dressings are one of the worst things you could ever eat, so choose very, very wisely.  I like Sister's SASS Caesar dressing.  Has 3 points in 2 tablespoons, and I only use 1 tablespoon.

If you you experience a gain, get over it.  Don't use it as an excuse to eat like shit.  Only losers make excuses like that.  And we all know that you're a winner, because only winners read my blog.


Don't argue.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

I Work Out - Cardio (video)

Totally thought of LMFAO's I'm Sexy and I Know it, when I wrote this title.  
Reality check: wanna be sexy? Gotta work out. 

So, I was talking with a friend from high school who was curious how I'm losing the weight.  I shared my story about Weight Watchers and working out.  And then she asked, "I gotta ask though, your work out schedule. Does it take you a few hours a day?"

The short answer to that: No, it doesn't take hours a day.  But rather multiple times a week.

You know, I never really thought about it, but a lot of people have no idea what I do to work out.  You hear: core, trainer, run, cardiocalisthenics, bootcamp, and so on, but I've never actually explained it in detail.  

So - I had an idea.  

Let's video tape me working out! 


God help us all.  It will be great!

Immediately after I thought this, I said to me: 
Self, we need to go shopping, you have NO matching workout clothes, and you cannot have these people seeing you in your crumby non-matching workout outfits. 

Yes, friends, that was my initial thought after deciding to video tape my crazy ass self.

Well, I haven't gone shopping yet, so you're going to have to just deal. 

My next thought: I probably look super hot ridiculous while working out.  

But, don't well all?

Today, I'm talking about cardio.

I have an entire series planned out and hope that I can post a new video each week.  But don't get your panties all up in a bunch be sad if it's longer than a week before each video.

Before you read this, read my disclaimer on the bottom right hand of the page.

Go, read it.

Right now.

Did you read it?

No?  Well - you should, because I'm not a professional, I'm just a girl who finally figured out what works for me.

So - cardio...

I'm sure you've met people who say "If you're not going to do at least 45 minutes of cardio, 4 days a week, there is no point in working out."

Well, screw them, they aren't entirely correct, in my valuable unprofessional opinion.

According to this article, it is recommended that adults get 30 minutes of moderate cardio five times per week, or 20 minutes of intense cardio three times per week.  

The way I view it, you have to start somewhere.  And realistically, you aren't going to go from not working out, to running for 30 minutes right off the bat.  That's hard to do.  And you should not feel discouraged if you can't do that right now.

I always mix free weights and/or core with my cardio.  But, you don't have to.  I'm working out to get healthy skinny* (DO NOT JUMP ON MY BACK FOR THAT "S" WORD - view my word key on the side of this site) so I need to add more flava muscle toning exercises to my routine.

I'm finally in the "average" weight range for my height, but I don't want to be average.  I want to be fine as hell! And it's a fact, muscle helps burn fat.  So I'm toning my muscle.  Plus, toned muscles on ladies is super sexy.  Don't argue, haters.  You know it is.

I digress, as usual...

So, once again, for cardio...I do this

Since it's unbearable outside hot, I run on a treadmill.  But I always recommend outdoors if it's doable.

< -- Cardio Starts Here -->

I warm up at a fast walk for 2 minutes.

Run 10 minutes or 1 mile all out* (whichever is longer).
If you can't run an entire mile, do not get down on yourself.  I couldn't either.  It's hard.  Just run for 1 minute, walk for 30 seconds, and repeat for 1 mile.  Each time you do it, run a little longer and BAM you'll be at 1 mile in no time.  I promise.

Cool down for 2 minutes.

Then comes the fun part.

Walk backwards, side shuffle right side, side shuffle left side for 1.5 minutes each.

Repeat 2 to 3 times.

What the ef is a side shuffle and how do you do it on a treadmill without killing yourself?  Que: super sexy workout video of yours truly.

Yes - I'm working on a higher quality video camera. My Flip Camera ran out of juice and I don't want to use my DSLR for this, so I used hubby's iPhone.  I think Blogger compresses it.  Will research.

So, clearly, I think my husband's iPhone can hear me...
What I'm saying is: This is the side shuffle and this is how you do it without killing yourself.  Keep your feet pointing straight ahead.  Make sure you do not point them in the direction you're moving (you won't use the targeted muscle group if you don't have your feet pointed straight ahead).  Note: this can be done without a treadmill, and it is too easy to point your feet the wrong direction when you're doing it on solid ground, so be extra careful with that.

This works your saddlebags inner/outer thighs.  PS, I used to have saddle bags, I don't anymore.  So, yes, I know what ef I'm talking about, this works, in my unprofessional opinion.

< -- Cardio Ends Here -->

BOOM - there is your 20-30 minutes of cardio.  I do this 5 times a week, followed by free weights and/or core.  Which will come at a later date, when I get my ass self in front of a camera again.  For beginners, I'd start with 3 to 4 times a week until you build your stamina.  Just recently started working out 6 days a week, so you don't want to over do it.  Or maybe you do...  Up to you.

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*Jen-ism - decode my language on the side of the blog. 

Special thanks to the hubby for video taping me and for waiting until I was done working out before laughing at with me.

peace & love,

Monday, July 2, 2012

Get Sexy Routine

Oh yes, I went there. 

This is my Get Sexy Routine, because let's face it, toned muscles on ladies are hot!

Sunday: cardio + arm free weights
Monday: cardio + core extravaganza
Tuesday: cardio + legs/glutes
Wednesday: cardio + arms + core
Thursday: rest
Friday: work out with trainer
Saturday: cardio + legs/glutes + core

Do you see what I did there?  To keep from injury, I broke up the areas I'm working on between workouts.  

Make sure you check out my I Work Out and I Work Out Video tags for tips, photos, and super sexy and not at all ridiculous videos of me performing the things I'm talking about above: core, arms, cardio, etc. 

I will be incorporating Bikram Yoga for a least 2 weeks starting at the end of July.  I may or may not keep that up, but of course, will keep you posted.

peace & love,

Music Monday | Too Close

Oh I'm loving this song.  Great mix and profound lyrics.  A completely different sound than what's being put out there right now.  It's refreshing.  Enjoy.

Too Close 
by Alex Clare

You know I'm not one to break promises
I don't want to hurt you but I need to breathe
At the end of it all, you're still my best friend
But there's something inside that I need to release
Which way is right, which way is wrong
How do I say that I need to move on
You know we're headed separate ways

And it feels like I am just too close to love you
There's nothing I can really say
I can't lie no more, I can't hide no more
Got to be true to myself
And it feels like I am just too close to love you
So I'll be on my way

You've given me more than I can return
Yet there's oh so much that you deserve
There's nothing to say, nothing to do,
I've nothing to give
I must live without you
You know we're headed separate ways

And it feels like I am just too close to love you
There's nothing I can really say
I can't lie no more, I can't hide no more
Got to be true to myself
And it feels like I am just too close to love you
So I'll be on my way

So I'll be on my way

And it feels like I am just too close to love you
There's nothing that I can really say
I can't lie no more, I can't hide no more
Got to be true to myself
And it feels like I am just too close to love you
So I'll be on my way

So I'll be on my way
So I'll be on my way

Friday, June 29, 2012

Photo Friday | Gold Mine

I feel like this title just committed me to posting photos every Friday.  Seeing how I am a photographer, it should be easy.  We'll see about that...

Jennifer Stamps Photography

Jennifer Stamps Photography

I found this little photography gold mine a few weeks back and did a shoot here with a fashion model.  It's pretty sweet.  I will be going back to explore with my camera soon, so you can expect to see much, much more.

until next time,

peace & love

Thursday, June 28, 2012

This is What 52lbs Looks Like

I had to think about this one a little bit.  Yes, I’m an open book.  Yes, I’m candid, sometimes to a fault.  But, I’m still a woman.  I still desire to feel sexy.  And yes, even tho I’m a happily married woman, still want to feel like others think I’m sexy too. And there is nothing wrong with that.  Someone will surely give me slack for that, but I speak the truth.  It is important for women to feel sexy about themselves!  So, that’s why I was nervous.  As weird as it sounds, sometimes I want people to just think that I've always been fit.  Not know that, for a while, it was completely out of control. 

I posted this compilation of photos to Facebook the night before last and the amount of comments and likes I received was unbelievable.  It made me realize something: I’m not alone.  There are so many people out there who are doing the same thing I’m doing, just got to their goal, are just getting started, or are too scared to try.  I would have done just about anything to see photos like this when I first started.  

As humans, we are naturally visual creatures.  We like to see what is going to happen.  It’s almost like it’s our proof, so – this, my friends – is what 52 lbs of fat looks like on a 5’ 8” woman. 

From left to right:
220lbs - college graduation - May 2007; 190lbs – engagement photos – Aug 2010; 168lbs iPhone birthday photo – June 1, 2012; the end result ...

The golden question: how did you lose the weight?  
I worked at it.  No, seriously, I did.  I ran.  I did squats.  I did lunges.  I sweat, a lot.  I hurt, a lot.  And I kept doing it. I didn’t try magic pills, drinks, or crash diets.  They don’t work and they aren’t natural.  You want to lose weight?  You probably won't like the answer.
 This is the tough love part… 
Get off your ass and go f***ing work for it.  You don’t deserve it if you’re not going to work for it.

As you can see – it’s been five years…
I’d say the summer of 2008 (so a year after that first photo) it hit me like a ton of bricks.  I…was…fat!  My BMI was 33.4.  Now – I don’t pay attention to BMI – it’s total bulls*** but, it’s a sort of guidance.  Do you know what BMI says is obese?  30 and greater.  So, according to BMI, I was obese.  

At 23 years old. 


I sank.  

My heart was crushed.  

I felt ugly, unworthy, gross. 

I all of a sudden couldn’t figure out why my boyfriend (now husband) was with me.  That is a TERRIBLE feeling!

So, I decided to do something.  I wanted to do something fun.  Something that didn't feel like work.  Something I'd stick with. 

So, being the total badass mofo that I am, I decided to start boxing.

Honestly - probably the hardest workout I've ever done!  You try getting in a ring and duking it out for 3 solid minutes - over and over.  Doesn't sound like a lot, but holy hell, it is!

The University of Texas has what’s called UT Informal Classes.  They are basically classes through the University but not for any sort of credit.  Well, they had a boxing class.  Boxing: that sounded FUN!  So I started boxing and started feeling much better about myself.  Plus, I was learning how to knock fools out, which is always a major WIN!

Then, I thought: OMG it would be so much fun to run a half marathon! Whooo! 

I never ran a mile in my life.  And I thought, at 220lbs, that a half marathon would be fun.

I’m sick.  I'm ambitious.

So, I asked my dad, who is a certified tri coach, what to do.

He gave me the hook up and in October 2008 I started training for the 2009 Austin half marathon (held in February).  And guess what, I completed it and lost some lbs in the meantime.  I was down to about 190 and was feeling like I was invincible.  So, naturally, I did more half marathons.  That year, I completed a total of 4 half marathons (last one being the 2010 Austin half).  

During that time I got super lax about my eating.  I’m burning 900 calories on each run, I can eat whatever the hell I want.  Truth, you can, if you’re not trying to lose weight.  If you’re trying to lose weight, you still need to watch what you eat.  Needless to say, the lbs weren't dropping like panties at a Justin Timberlake concert coming off as easily. 

Then, I thought of another GENIUS idea! 

 I’ll do the Chicago Marathon in 2010.  OMG it will be so amazingly awesome! 

 So a dear friend, who is from Chicago, and I started training together (even though she was in AZ and I was in TX – we trained remotely).  Well, about 6 weeks before the race, on my 16 mile run, I broke down.  It was about mile 13 – I was still 3 miles from my car.  I called my husband - fiancĂ© at the time - (who was studying for the Bar exam – that’s how bad this was) to pick me up.  I literally couldn’t walk to my car the 3 miles, let alone run.  

It was demoralizing.  I felt defeated.  I felt like a quitter, even though I had suffered an injury.  

I didn’t run again.  Until very recently.

I was scared.

And strangely, I was mad at running.  

How could it injury me after all the time I dedicated to it?

So, from September 2010 until March 2012 I lost and gained the same 15lbs over and over and over again.  I got down to the 170’s, and then gained it back up to the 190’s, then 170’s, then 190’s, and so on and so forth.  I wasn’t exercising on a regular basis.  I’d try boot camp for a few months.  Then quit.  Then try something else, then quit.

Finally, at the end of February, 2012 I decided that enough was enough.  

Not knowing what to do, I thought I’d try Weight Watchers.  My thought process was this: If Charles Barkley and Jennifer Hudson could do it, then I could.  Plus, if it doesn’t work, I can quit it.  That seemed easy enough.  So, after researching it, I gave it a whirl.  And OMG and I am glad I did.

I started on February 27, 2012 at 191.  It is now 4 months later and I weigh 168 (literally the thinnest/lightest I've been in my adult life - I'm acutally smaller than I was my Senior Year of HS).  That’s averaging almost 1.5 lbs lost each week.  Some weeks were more, some were less, and I’ve had 3 weeks where I’ve gained 1lb.  But, I’ve stuck with it.  

For the first 3 ½ months of Weight Watchers I worked out with a trainer once a week and did boot camp twice a week.  

I’m starting a new schedule where I work out with a trainer once a week, run & free weights 3 times a week, and do yoga 2 times a week.  I figure I’m already at high end of “average” weight for my height, so it’s going to be a little more challenging to lose this last 23 lbs.

The absolute best part about the way I’ve lost this weight is that:

 I have quite literally busted my ass off.  

I know how hard it is.  I know how to keep it off.  And I will continue to bust my ass to keep it off.  Because I’m not getting fat again.  THAT is why it’s better than a magic pill, special drink, or crash diet. I’ve found a perfect balance of diet and exercise and I plan on maintaining it for life.  Really, I don’t see how I have any other option.

So, the fun part: what is my reward?  Well, other than a superhot bod, and seeing how I'm a photographer and photos are important to me, I have 2 rewards…

  1. Since I’m fat in all of our engagement photos, hubby and I are getting more professional photos done by my photog friends who also did our engagement/wedding photos.  We will be in AZ in December, and they will be doing them then – yep, so I gotta be at goal by then!  No pressure… 
  2. I’m getting my own boudoir photos done.  Yes, the boudoir photographer is finally going to get some done herself.  And hey, you never know, maybe I’ll share one or two here… ;)  That might be TMI for some of you, but like I said - I'm an open book. 
There you have it.  The hold-nothing-back-Jen that you all love!  But seriously though, I’m an open book when it comes to just about every aspect of my life.  I’m proud of who I am and realize that it’s because of what I’ve done/overcome that I am who I am today.  If you have any questions or want more deets, please let me know, I’d be happy to share!

And I'll leave you with new obsession.  My 5" hot pink high heels. Ow!

Until next time,

peace & love

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Puppy Love

So, I've been a fan of Karmin since they were a YouTube Channel.  Amazing vocals, talented guitar, and totally rad covers.  Well, fairly recently, they came out with an original album and I'm sure you've all by now heard their first single: Brokenhearted.  Upbeat and pop-y with a little bit of rap - can't beat that, right?!  Super fun.  I listened to the lyrics and they made me smile.  Totally reminds me of the first few months hubby and I started dating...awwww.  So, enjoy...

by Karmin

This is more than a typical kinda thing
Felt the jones in my bones when you were touching me, oh oh
Didn't wanna take it slow
In a daze, going crazed, I can barely think
You're replaying in my brain, find it hard to sleep, oh oh
Waiting for my phone to blow

Now I'm here in a sticky situation
Got a little trouble, yep and now I'm pacin'
Five minutes, ten minutes, now it's been an hour
Don't wanna think too hard, but I'm sour

Oh oh, I can't seem to let you go

See I've been waiting all day
For you to call me baby
So let's get up, let's get on it
Don't you leave me broken hearted tonight
Come on, that's right
Honest baby I'll do
Anything you want to
So can we finish what we started
Don't you leave me broken hearted tonight
Come on, that's right, cheerio

What's the time, such a crime
Not a single word, sipping on a Patron
Just to calm my nerves, oh oh
Poppin' bottles by the phone
Oh yeah
Had me up, had me down, turn me inside out
That's enough, call me up
Maybe I'm in doubt, oh oh
I don't even think you know, no no

See I've been waiting all day
For you to call me baby
So let's get up, let's get on it
Don't you leave me broken hearted tonight
Come on, that's right
Honest baby I'll do
Anything you want to
So can we finish what we started
Don't you leave me broken hearted tonight
Come on, that's right, cheerio

Anything you wanna do, I'll be on it too
Everything you say is like go with the view
Business on the front, party in the back
Maybe I was wrong, was the outfit really wack?

This kinda thing doesn't happen usually
I'm on the opposite side of it, truthfully
I know you want it so come and get it, cheerio

See I've been waiting all day
For you to call me baby
So let's get up, let's get on it
Don't you leave me broken hearted tonight, ohhhohohhhoohhhh
Honest baby I'll do
Anything you want to
So can we finish what we started
Don't you leave me broken hearted tonight
Come on, that's right, cheeri, cheerio

When you gonna call
Don't leave me broken hearted
I've been waiting up
Let's finish what we started, oh oh
I can't seem to let you go
Come on, that's right, cheerio, uh!

If you haven't checked it out yet, make sure you check out my Etsy store. Having a sale and you can use code HAPPY2BDAY (for the 2nd anniversary of my design biz) for 40% off until the end of June. 

Thursday, June 21, 2012

I'm 2!

Ok - I guess I'm not 2...but my design business is!  June marks the 2nd anniversary of me taking my graphic design to the "professional" level.  Uck...I hate saying that...professional.  But I guess that's what it is, getting paid to do something, right?

Anyways, to celebrate, I'm giving all my lovely friends, supporters, followers, and anyone really that stumbles across this blog, my Twitter account, or Facebook page 40% off the items in my Etsy shop!  Some fun, cute, quirky, semi-vulgar things in that shop.  Ok, not really semi-vulgar, but I call it "unapologetic print design for those with a sense of humor" for a reason. ;)

Pssst...the discount code is at the bottom of this page. 

Here's a few things you'll find

blank inside

inside: congrats on getting knocked up

inside: because I swear you just had a kid...

blank inside
inside: you have it
inside: now we know that you're not a virgin 

Just a few and I'm adding new stuff all the time.  Pretty much whatever I'd say to my BFF is going on a card design.  

So, use this code: HAPPY2BDAY anytime in June and you'll receive 40% off of your purchase!

Enjoy!  And stop apologizing for your inappropriate humor...I don't! 

Monday, June 11, 2012

This one's a fighter

Nothing worthwhile is easy. And that fact that I’m fighting to get it proves two things: I want it more than anything and I’ll fight to never lose it.

This is my anthem.


The Fighter

Gym Class Heroes
(feat. Ryan Tedder)

Text book version of a kid going nowhere fast
And now I'm yelling "kiss my ass"
It's gonna take a couple right hooks, a few left jabs
For you to recognize you really ain't got it bad

Until the referee rings the bell
Until both your eyes start to swell
Until the crowd goes home
What we gonna do ya'll?

[Chorus - Ryan Tedder]
Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say of me, say of me, say of me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say of me, say of me, say of me,
This one's a fighter

Everybody put yo hands up
What we gonna do? [x7] ya'll

If you fall pick yourself up off the floor (get up)
And when your bones can't take no more (c'mon)
Just remember what you're here for
Cuz I know Imma damn sure

Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say of me, say of me, say of me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say of me, say of me, say of me,
This one's a fighter

'Til the referee rings the bell
'Til both ya eyes start to swell
'Til the crowd goes home,
What we gonna do kid?   

Monday, June 4, 2012

The Best Birthday Ever!

It's kind of a running joke for me.  I'm a firm believer that the best is yet to come, so anytime I experience something, naturally: It's the best thing ever!  Best Christmas ever.  Best vacation ever. And yes - best birthday ever!  All jokes aside, this was one very amazing birthday.  I've never felt more loved and it reminded me just how truly blessed I am to have amazing people in my life.

Friday (my actual birthday) was amazing.  I received THREE bouquets of flowers that day - THREE!!!  AMAZING!

Then, that night, hubby and I headed to San Diego.  We are travelers at heart.  We love, love, love exploring new places (and old places) together!  I hadn't been to San Diego in probably 12 or 15 years so it was so fun to go back! 

 The birthday girl and her newly thinned-self was ready for her flight!

We stayed at the Andaz in San Diego.  Yes, that's a "sexy shower".  You can see from the bedroom to the bathroom through the shower - HOTT!

And we could see Petco Park from our hotel! 

 My birthday kicks!

 We went to the USS Midway museum.  SO COOL!
 Seeing how my mom, dad, and uncle are former Marines, I love anything USMC!

 Hubby: still wishes he were a pilot.  Someday. 

 Fighter pilot, Jen!

The type of Helo my uncle flew for the USMC. 

 He put me in the Brig. 

 Then we had seafood and beer.  And I ran out of beer.  And it was sad.

 Then we went to batting practice before the Diamond Backs and Padres game.  Pitchers chillin in front of us.

Then, JJ Putz (close for the DBacks) tossed me up a ball!  *swoon* 

 Awesome ballpark!

Yep - that's a dog (a real one) in that remote control car.  Austin isn't the only city keepin' it weird!  

On board The Spirit of  San Diego ready for a bay tour. 

Ended the trip with a Belgium Triple local brew called Green Flash.  I love my Belgium Triples! 

So, see?  It really was THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!  


Thursday, May 31, 2012

Losing too fast?!

Today was a weigh in day.  Since I do Weight Watchers online, I just weigh myself first thing in the morning on Thursdays.  I stepped on the scale and saw yet another 2lbs gone.  Two pounds…in one week!  Again!

WW says that on average people lose between 1 and 2 pounds a week.  To me, that says that some people lose more than 2 pounds a week.

I officially reached my short term goal of 10% lost (I’m about 11% down now).  That’s so crazy to think about.  I am literally (more than) 10% smaller than I was just 14 weeks ago.  Take me and just shrink me by 90%.  WOW!

After I put that number into my little WW iPhone app it did the "Congratulations you’ve lost 2lbs and reached your short term 10% goal!” and proceeded to tell me that I’m losing weight too quickly.  They said that while losing 2lbs a week is ok, averaging that for 4 weeks is to fast.

Say whaaaa?!

Since this is a long term thing.  I’m not losing to get into a wedding dress, bikini, high school reunion, or anything like that.  I’m losing the weight because it’s time, I’m ready, I’m committed, and I will keep up with my goal weight FOR LIFE.  Because of all that, I’m not looking for a quick fix.  That’s why I’m not crash dieting, taking pills, fasting…nothing like that.  I’m losing by working my ass off in heat + humidity and eating healthfully.   When I hear: “you’re losing weight to quickly” – to me that means “You won’t be able to maintain this and you’ll gain it all back”.

So, I took a step back and looked at what I’ve been doing over the last month.

I’m not hungry.  Ever.  When I am hungry, I eat.  In between meals, if I’m hungry, I usually cherries or carrots or some other kind of veggie.  Sometimes I reach for chips or popcorn, but usually fruit or veggies.  I use my daily points every day and usually dip into my weekly points every week, but I almost always have weekly points left (that disappear if they aren’t used).

I am working out 3 days a week for an hour each day.  Sure they are really hard as hell workouts, but I’m burning fat and toning muscle.  My trainer is certified and he knows my goals.  I’m not doing anything wrong there.

I just went to the nutritionist last Thursday.  She did a body comp.  The results yielding what I was hoping for: all the weight I’ve lost has been fat.  Not a single once of muscle was gone.  To me, that means I have the perfect diet/exercise ratio.

So – what I’ve gathered from this is: keep doing what I’m doing! I think some people on WW still don’t get it.  They don’t understand that this is a lifelong thing (like with any “diet”).  They start starving themselves and not using all their points.  And those people should be warned to either eat differently or stop losing so fast because it’s not sustainable.  At this point, the only way I could slow down is if I stop working out or eating when I’m not hungry – neither of which are healthy.

That’s my plan.  Just keep doing what I’m doing.  PS – I just bought a size 8 for the first time – EVER!  I wasn’t even an 8 in high school.  Smallest I’ve ever been as an adult is a 10.  Looks like a 6 or 4 is totally attainable!  Can’t believe I just wrote that down.  It’s exciting!

Start Weight: 191lbs 
Weight Today: 170.4lbs 
Goal Weight: 145lbs 
Weight Lost: 20.6lbs 
Pounds to Goal: 25.4lbs 
Height: 5’8”

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Hello, Beautiful

I am a photographer.  One of the types of photography I do is boudoir.

It's true.  And I love it.

I'm hosting a Campaign & Giveaway called "Hello, Beautiful".  Below is the information from my boudoir blog.  If you don't want to read it, and just go straight the the goods and enter to win: CLICK HERE.

. . .

Boudoir is amazing.  I have ladies ask me all the time if I enjoy it.  My answer is always gushing with excitement!  Truth be told, if I had to pick a favorite type of photography, it would be boudoir.  Don't get me wrong, I love families, engagements, maternity, seniors, brides, and so on.  But there is just something about boudoir that is unmatched in any other type of photography for me.

What's so amazing about it is that I get to see women transform and become beautifully confident right before my eyes.  And then when all is said and done, I get to share the photos with them to prove just how beautiful they are - just the way they are!

Boudoir isn't about being a certain size.  Or certain age.  Or certain shape.  Boudoir is about embracing who you are, and loving it!  You are beautiful.  You are sexy.  And I can prove it!

So, without further ado, my:

"Hello, Beautiful!" Campaign & Giveaway!

The campaign part: each day for the duration of the campaign (8 days) I'll be posting a new photo to the "Hello, Beautiful" album on Facebook as a reminder that each and every one of you is beautiful!  Album linked here.

The giveaway part: This giveaway includes a $25 gift certificate to Victoria's Secret, a Sweetheart Boudoir Session*, and two 4x6 prints.  The more entries you do, the more chance you have of winning**!

End date: midnight EST May 31
Winner will be announced June 1

Bonus points!
Below you'll see a bunch of ways to earn entries.  Do as many as you'd like.  For bonus points, tweet about the giveaway campaign from the widget below each day.  For even more points, share the "Hello, Beautiful" photo on your Facebook wall (just look for the new photo posted daily).  Each tweet and each share is worth 1 extra bonus point (each).

Visit my boudoir blog post for the details on how to enter to win! 

If you're not interested, at least like the Fabcebook page and share the "Hello, Beautiful" photos.  It's my mission to make sure every woman knows she is beautiful!

Won't you join my mission in making sure that every woman knows she's beautiful? 

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Burrito Soup - OMG YUM!

I made this on Tuesday night and it was a HUGE hit!  “How can a soup taste like a burrito?” my hubby asked.  My response, “Just try it.”  He did and was hooked!

I have a feeling we are going to wear this out in the winter!  This recipe doesn’t call for meat (I don’t think it needs it), but you can easily add shredded chicken for just a few extra points to make this a much heartier meal.  Even though it’s meatless, it’s filling.


Bean Burrito Soup
PointsPlus® Value: 5
Servings: 4
Preparation Time: 9 min
Cooking Time: 16 min
Level of Difficulty: Easy

2 cup(s) reduced-sodium chicken broth
16 oz fat-free canned refried beans
1 4oz can of diced green chiles
2 clove(s) garlic clove(s)
1 Tbsp chili powder
4 Tbsp low-fat shredded Cheddar cheese
3 Tbsp cilantro
1 cup(s) uncooked bell pepper(s)
1 cup(s) cooked frozen yellow corn
4 Tbsp fat-free sour cream
4 oz tortilla strips (or crushed tortilla chips)


  1. Bring the broth and beans to a boil in a large saucepan over medium-high heat. Add the corn and pepper, chilies, garlic, and chili powder; return to a boil. Reduce the heat and simmer, covered, until
  2. the flavors are blended and the vegetables are tender, about 6 minutes.
  3. Divide the soup evenly among 4 bowls. Top each bowl with about 2 tablespoons tortilla strips,
  4. 1 tablespoon each of cheese and sour cream, then a sprinkling of chopped cilantro. Yields 1 1⁄2 cups soup with toppings per serving.

Friday, May 4, 2012

Hot damn!

I was getting dressed this morning.  I was in the bathroom, completely clothed, putting the finishing touches on my hair, when I saw my husband look at me out of the corner of my eye.  Immediately he yelled out:

“Hot damn, you’re hot!”

To switch I couldn’t help but smile from ear to ear.  He is always so good about telling me “You’re beautiful”, “You’re sexy”, “You’re hot”.  Honestly, I hear at least one of those 2 or 3 times a day.  He’s so good at reminding me of that.

But for some reason today, I responded with, “Hell yeah I am!”

I think it’s my confidence boost that is making me seem “hotter”.

Today was a weigh in.  I didn’t quite reach the 175 I wanted, but I still lost 1.2 pounds this week.  This morning, I weighed in at 175.4.  I’m very happy for that.  I’m going to try not to focus so much on losing such high numbers each week and just focus on eating right, staying on plan, working out like I’m supposed to, and being happy.

Right now?  I’m very happy!

My confidence grows on a daily basis!

Start Weight: 191lbs 
Weight Today: 175.4lbs 
Goal Weight: 145lbs 
Weight Lost: 15.4lbs 
Pounds to Goal: 30.4lbs 
Height: 5’8”

Friday, April 27, 2012

Ah, man!

Argh!  This is the second time that it’s happened (not in a row – thankfully).  I didn’t lose at least 1 lb this week.  I lost 1.4 pounds since my last “official” weigh in, 2 weeks ago.  However, I unofficially weighed myself last Wednesday (9 days ago) and was 177.  Today, I’m 176.6.  That means that in a week and a half, I lost .4 pounds.  THIS is why I should not weigh myself midweek.

What is even more frustrating, is that I set milestone goals for myself.  My next one is 175lbs by Friday, May 4.  That is 1 week from today.  Which means I need to lose 1.4 pounds in 1 week.  If I can’t make it, I can’t make it, not the end of the world.  I’m just REALLY trying to make goal weight by mid-September.  In order to do that, I need to lose 5 pounds every 3 weeks until the last 10 pounds.  I get 8 weeks to lose the last 10 – I figure it’s hardest to lose that last 10…right?

So, here’s my plan for this week.  Here is how I hope to lose those 1.4 pounds in 7 days.
  • Weight Watchers took yet ANOTHER point from me today!  My daily allotment is now 29 points (I started with 31) 
  • I still get 49 weekly bonus points.  It’s my goal to only use those on beer if I need the extra points.  (Remember, I only have 1 beer on days I work out, and 1 each weekend day)
  • Still working out with my trainer 3 days a week.  I’ll probably add cardio in tomorrow or Sunday to get that 4th day in.

I really think that if I work out all 3 or 4 days and keep within my daily points, I’ll be able to lose it.  We will see.

I’m just trying to set realistic goals and help keep my motivated WITHOUT becoming obsessed with the scale.  If I can’t reach this mini goal, I may need to reassess.  We’ll see.

Things I remind myself of daily:
  • This is long term
  • This will be permanent
  • I’ve come a LONG way already

Start Weight: 191lbs 
Weight Today: 176.6lbs 
Goal Weight: 145lbs 
Weight Lost: 14.4lbs 
Pounds to Goal: 31.6lbs 
Height: 5’8”

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Peanut Butter Cup Cupcakes

I was having a major sweet tooth last night.  They kind that wouldn’t go away until I ate something sweet.  I remember seeing something with peanut butter and whipped cream on Pinterest a while back, so I searched for it.  And low and behold, found a delicious recipe.

The receipt said it yielded 12 “cupcakes” but every review I read said they made 6 “cupcakes”.  So that’s what I did.  Next time, I’m going to make 12…they are a bit too big right now.

Here are your ingredients:

  • 1 tub of cool whip free (softened – not melted)
  • 3 tablespoons of peanut butter
  • ½ teaspoon unsweetened cocoa powder (the recipe called for sugar free chocolate syrup but I didn't have any)

Mix together in a large bowl.  Put cupcake cups in the cupcake pan, and spoon into your cups.  Freeze for at least 2 hours.  Enjoy!

I can think of a million different ways to make this – with fruit, cookies (if you don’t care about points/calories), nuts, flavored whipped cream, jam instead of PB, the list goes on.

6 cupcakes – 3 weight watchers points each